maybe it's just me

You know those feelings you get? those feelings that are diffrnt for everything? how strongly you feel about certain things? i feel like i'm not rly using my thoughts to the fullest potential. not even sure if that makes sense. so I suppose you could understand. prbly not. i feel like we're all hiding behind these masks. and there's this biiig wall up. i miss debate class last year where i'd poor my heart out onto the floor. i want to go out and fucking run into the ocean at 2 am. i just want to stare up into the sapphire sky and dream dream dream out loud. i want me a nice 20- yr old. a big daddy. who makes the bed in the morning, and scrubs my body w/ vanilla soap in the shower, and has a nice light cup of coffee awaiting me downstairs. i want to live my dream. i want to clean parks, hold little kids hands, and sing to big crowds.
you haven't left my head, since those three words you said/.

assumptions

no matter how much you love someone and you think you can come by anytime and say those magical words thinking this time it will change maybe we'll fall back into order and we can have those sparks again. no. it's done. it's all gone. what's done is done. leave it alone. keep walking ahead. don't turn back. forget the past, and embrace right now.,